Slick Chrome American Prince

Society in general loves the idea of the handsome prince riding up on a white horse and saving the poor, helpless damsel in distress. Fairytales colored my childhood and helped give me a positive outlook on love and life in general.

However....I am a woman. I am not helpless. I don't need some greasy man with happy loving hands running my life. The difference between fairytales and reality is that modern day princesses save the world- they don't wait for men to save the world for them.

So...pretty much my favorite princess is Belle. Think about it. She is smart, beautiful, caring, loving, and she doesn't take the Beast's crap. She doesn't let him push her around, she makes her own decisions, and then he comes in for the things that she can't or doesn't want to do herself- such as saving her from a pack of rabid wolves.

A negative example would be Christine in the Phantom of the Opera. What kind of self-respecting woman lets the man she loves come almost get himself killed by a madman in a dungeon? There were hundreds of candlesticks around...she could've attempted to knock the Phantom out with one of them. Even if she failed miserably, (as I probably would) at least she would've tried.

Nowadays, many men seem to think that being the gentleman and caring for the woman in their lives means they have to fight dragons. Other chauvinistic men are...well..chauvinist. Women are not stupid!

Luckily, there are hundreds of men who are the embodiment of a gentleman- opening doors, carrying heavy loads, getting chairs...without turning into the caveman "I am man. I must lead."

Thanks to the modern-day fairytale makers!

A Dustland Fairytale The Killers

Written in the Stars

Life is complicated. Let's deal with it. But sometimes, it becomes hard.

Lately I've been toying with the idea of a soulmate. I've decided that the idea is both true and untrue. For some people, there is one person and one person only who is right for them. This is true in the case of my sister, Janae, and her man Timothy. They are perfect for each other, and I honestly can't imagine my sister with anyone else.

For others, however, life is not quite so simple. I believe that for the great majority of people, including myself, there is no such thing as a soulmate. We could be incredibly happy with a large diversity of people, depending on our choices. Theoretically, any two people could be happy together if they were equally willing to work for the relationship. IE Justin Bieber and I could work out. Just kidding. I wouldn't be willing to work at that relationship.

I guess what I'm saying is that relationships depend on life choices, circumstances, and then just a lot of hard work. Janae and Timothy work because of choices they made. In the future, it will take work to keep them together. I'm not saying that people that break up or divorce don't work hard, but I am saying that relationships are not a picnic.

There may be someone out there for me- a destiny written in the stars. Or maybe not. Maybe I have to work for it. Either way- love is a gift. I'll try to cherish it as it comes.

Written in the Stars Tinie Tempah

The World Falls Down

So...I don't expect anyone to read this, but I need an outlet. Sometimes, the world around me crashes down, and that has been this week to its fullest. It started out contacting someone I loved very much, and telling him that we couldn't be together, because of my religious beliefs. It was literally, the hardest thing I have ever done. Since then, my heart has been ground into a million tiny shard of beautiful colored glass, as we both attempted to live with that decision.
Luckily, my amazing and wonderful best friend was there for me. I don't know what it was, but the sheer fact that she was able to listen to my problems and not judge me for all of the messed up relationships I've had, was incredible. It's even more incredible because she hated me until a month ago.
Long story. Her previous best friend hated me, because I...well...I'd like to think that I look for the stars. I love light, and I love the analogies it forms with light.
Also...color. I love color, and I love the way it connects with people and things. I see people as colors, which change as we do. Currently I'm green. My best friend is orange, and her previous best friend is purple. For some reason, green and orange should not go together, but they do and it is lovely. Green and purple are far too compatible for our complicated world.
Don't get me wrong, I love Julia-Rose. I love the way she looks at life and her incredible creative mind. But just as chocolate and olives are both delicious, they should not go together. That is she and I in a nutshell.
Pretty much, the combination of those three people, plus a few more, have made my life a mess of confusion and pain for the last year or so.
But there is proverbial light at the end of the tunnel. I have discovered the importance of your family, because my sister was the only one to continually stand by me. I have discovered the loveliness of cream cheese filled cupcakes, embroidery floss anklets, six hour conversations through the night...and most of all of the stars.
They shine for me. For you. For all who care to see.

Ever the Same Rob Thomas